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Album: Recurring Dream
Released October 2017

Recurring Dream
 I have been so bland
It all feels like a long dream I had
And i was stuck in idle despite how badly I wanted to fight
I kept having this reccurring dream
That I would be driving and suddenly I couldn’t see
I was just waiting to crash

Folding
Tonight I realized when you looked into my eyes
I was alone in feeling so alone
Are we waving a moment dissipating
or am I just folding,
building a wall so you’ll leave me?
Tonight I realized while you were talking from behind your eyes
I was alone in feeling so alone
Are we waving a moment dissipating
or am I just folding,
building a wall so you’ll leave me?
Tonight I realized while you looked into my eyes I was alone


This Is Not a Test
Well if you wanna go
you better just head on straight
and if you wanna know
well you better just go look it in its face
'cause we’ve been spinning around in a dance we know so well
and you smile all the while
and I’m in a full blown denial

 This is, this is not a test…

Well if you’re scared to go
well this is no time to feel safe
and if you’re scared to know
you better just go look it in its face
or the ghost you have inside
 it will haunt the house you grew up in
and the ghost will mourn and cry
for all the would have, should have, could have been

This is, this is not a test
This is, this is not a test...


Inward Soul
You’re an inward soul
You like to stay in sometimes on Friday nights
you like to watch movies
sometimes projected behind your eyes
you don’t open up so easy
no, not as smooth as the others do
though you wish is so, though you wish it so
and nothing comes out right
when you keep half of you locked in side
no, no, no I don’t think you see me right
oh, I am so locked

There’s no need to be so serious tonight… (so don’t)

You’re an inward soul
you paint the inner walls of your mind
your heavy head will beg to pour
so you use your hands to make it light
and maybe someone will come through your door
maybe somebody can recognize
oh, maybe someone will come through your door
do you recognize?

Still you say, I wish I was you
I wish I was more like you are
because I know when you’re amused
and I see how you usually are
and well, I don’t think you see me right
cause I keep half of me locked inside
no, no, no I don’t think you see me right
oh, I am so locked

There’s no need to be so serious tonight…
There’s no need to be so serious (so don’t)



Ha Ha Just Kidding
You said to open up and I was so reluctant
You said, come on just be honest
So I poured out like black ink on your white shirt
now you have to wear it and I wish is stayed where it belonged
'cause now I have to see it too
I think I said too much
And what I said I can’t take back
but I remind myself that the truth was better than to lie
'cause then, well what’s the point of life?
but they way you looked at me, oh
but the way you looked at me, oh
think I broke your heart oh, no, no
it was so sad oh, no, no

ha, ha, ha, ha, I’m just kidding

I tried to open up and I was so reluctant
If I step out of this body I fear I will lose boundaries
So I dwell in a shadowy place where all the creatures know my face
and how they love when I am sad
oh, no, did I just say that?
 what have I said, oh I digress
but are we making progress?
An endless loop inside my head says no, yes, yes, no, yes, yes
and I bleed, I bleed...

ha, ha, ha, ha, I’m just kidding

You said to open up so I...

ha, ha, ha, ha, I’m just kidding
oh, I’m just kidding
I wish I was kidding
ah, who am I kidding?

Starry Eyes
oh starry night
my starry eyes
mist onto my palms
and I don’t know why
ahhhh
oh starry night
temporary high
pretty disguise
your charming light
ahhhh
oh starry night
my starry eyes
temporary high…

A Denial
Hoping, wishing, begging that you’d come back
I’ve been searching tapes and old photographs to somehow have you here
and I wish I could have an ounce of that fear that I used to hold, but now I’m cold
and all I feel is sick, sick, sick and I’m sick of it
Come breathe me all the life that I lack
well I guess I’d breathe anything if meant maybe you would come back
It’s lonely, it’s lonely, it’s lonely in this storm
 it’s lonely, it’s lonely here

Hoping, wishing, begging to be brought back
I've been searching for a breath that will speak back
and just to have you here
would make me want to wish against death, I guess
Come breathe me all the life I let pass
I’ll breathe you all the ache that you lack,
ahhh
It’s lonely, it’s lonely, it’s lonely in this storm
it’s lonely, it’s lonely here

 Where is my mind?
I hide you
I deny you
If I love you, then I’ll fight you
 hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey,
ahhhhhhh
hey, hey, hey
I’ll bleed it out…
I’ll cry it out…
I’ll bleed it out…
I’ll cry it out…
I’ll bleed it out…
We’ll make it out




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